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29th-Dec-2009 12:24 pm - Signs of Emotional/Mental Abuse
-They make you feel like they are sick of you, make you feel worthless, and don't like you, but they get very upset and/or angry if they find out you are trying to leave.

-You're worthless! When you go and do something, you do it all wrong all the time. You cannot seem to make them happy, and they let you know it.

-Their hurt feelings are all your fault. They never place blame on themselves. They point their finger at you for their problems and never place blame on their own actions.

-They expect perfection from you. They are dependent on you for everything that they need, and are expected to meet their needs perfectly.

About face! The abuser is nice for awhile, but then they do an about face and become angry about things that were fine earlier. Their behavior changes for no obvious reason.

-You feel like your life would be great if they weren't so hot and cold with their emotions.

-Walking on eggs? You feel like you have to be very careful with everything that you say and do when it comes to the abuser. One wrong action could lead you into a time of rage that you dread.

-Commit now! If you're in a relationship that has just started, the partner tends to try and get you to commit quickly and things move extremely fast.

Indeed. That checklist ended up a bit longer than I expected it to be.
29th-Dec-2009 03:45 pm - Christmas!
Christmas has been amazing.

Father Christmas brough me an iPod Touch and a beautiful Marc Jacobs handbag, I love it! Had lots of Christmas fun, seen loads of old friends and family and now back in Leeds, lazing and off work until next Monday! Yes!

Hope you all had a fab yuletide too :)

xx
21st-Dec-2009 11:22 pm - Trend chaser
I started my new job today and it's bloody AWESOME.

As soon as I walked into the office I almost squealed with delight but then realised I am meant to be scary digital management type woman with career focus, grace and poise. That said, I did a little giddy dance in the toilets when I was out of sight. The building itself is terribly old fashioned, pretty ugly and reminds me of school, it's really sixties.

But... The office is basically covered in clothes, racks of clothes, mannequins with bits of fabric on them, there are piles of Vogue and Elle and InStyle everywhere and the buyers just shriek at each other saying things like "On trend!" "Seasonality!" "Sequins!" "Yah!". In a good way. My team seems really nice, it's tiny (me, one other girl who's my manager and two web developers). There's also a guy who works on the next desk called Andrew who I'm sure I recognise from the heady days of the Fav. They all seem really ace. My first jobs are:
  • Read latest editions of Vogue, Marie Claire, Elle, Instyle, Look, Grazia (SERIOUSLY. I GET PAID FOR THIS)
  • Compile a plan of trends/topics for the blog for 2010 that I want to cover, then decide who else I want to write for the blog as well as existing bloggers
  • Plan in video podcasts for the site for next year
  • Arrange new homepage layout for fabulous new designer range in partnership with Enviornmental Justice Foundation (see, Fashion AND ehtics!)
I think I'm going to like it here...

First day at the office...

In other news, my old team from fun direct gave me a wonderful send off on Friday at the Sky Lounge/City Inn in Leeds. They bought me a beautiful Pandora bracelet with some really sweet charms. I drank my own body weight in champagne cocktails, it was fab. I'll miss them, but after today I definitely feel like I made the right move. The new office is a lot quieter though, even with the radio on! I did have a little mental/emotional wobble on the phone earlier with the boy, but I think it was just because I'm tired and gutted that I won't get to spend any time with him at all until a few days after Christmas, pretty shitty but I suppose that's the price I pay for being a business WAG. I'm dead proud of him having such an ace job but just wish it didn't take him away for such long periods of time. I'll be reet, it's just that it'd be nice to have him here to cuddle up to and hang out with for more than one or two days a week. Ho hum.

Other than that, everything's peachy. Anyway, back to my ACE JOB> >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Tomorrow I shall mainly be reading fashion websites, researching trends and planning how I can send the site into the fashion stratosphere... YEAH!!!!

sin is in, sweetie

I've also decided it's time to actually get serious about losing weight. I've joined Puregym in Leeds and have been quite a few times (even despite the snow) and I started WW again today. Might seem silly doing it at Christmas but I figure this way, I won't have as much hard work to do in January. I want to be easily into a size 10 by the time the next sample outfits go up for grabs at work, they only come in small sizes so no more tubton town! No more wine, no more take away, no more snacking on shite. From here on in it's all about breakfast, salad, soup and GIN.

BEING TINY IS GOING TO BE HUGE IN 2010, you heard it here first, kids.
20th-Dec-2009 06:45 pm - Festive to do list
Festive to do list.

Monday

Start new job as fashionista to the stars (in a way)
Drive to and from said job in snow without becoming ensconced in horrific RTA
Post Christmas cards
Get home, watch special future episode of Hollyoaks
Go to gym
wrap presents

Tuesday

Enjoy second day of new job
Get home
go to gym
wrap presents I inevitably didn't get round to doing on Monday

Wednesday

Last day at new job prior to Christmas
Go to buy festive essentials from Sainsos
Load up car with said festive treats, champagne, presents, etc
Go to gym
Watch Home Alone one and two

Thursday

Christmas eve! My favourite day of the year
Get up, go to gym
Drive home for Christmas listening to festive songs
Go out down Swints, behave with poise and grace, drink only three glasses of champagne as to not result in horrible Christmas morning hangover

Be home in bed for midnight

Friday
Christmas day
Open presents
Eat Christmas dinner
Drink and be merry
Fall to sleep watching Christmas telly at 8pm

Saturday

Boxing day
Open to suggestions - this will be the first boxing day in about 10 years that I haven't had plans for.
Hopefully wake up well rested and full of the joys of the season (or at least in the mood to get a bit rummied)

Sunday

Meet Heather for tea and mince pies
Drive back to Leeds
go to post-Christmas indulgence gym session.
Possibly pass out.

Monday

The boy returns from his Christmas exile after being sent away by his horrible company who have no regard for the Christmas season nor any concept of allowing people to actually see each other and spend time together for more than about two seconds a week.
Have lovely Christmas day II at my flat
Give him his awesome presents

Tues until 30th

laze around, eat, drink, be merry, try to work out a bit

31st
Jo and Ben's wedding at Hazlewood castle

1st January 2010
New year, new start. New career, new direction, new me.
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